Wednesday, August 31, 2005
teacher's day
teacher's day programme...
have been plannin tis wif 6 peeps..
aimah, wee gee, jahafar, wei jie, lynn and carmen
haha... had fun workin wif them..
although many things crop up todae
but overall, everythin turned out really well..
was veri veri veri happy
tat the teachers enjoyed the concert
we have onli 2 rehearsals
the chairman didnt turn up...
until today.. minutes b4 the concert..
everythin was in chaos..
there were shortage of ppl
and the students werent given the que
haiz... nevermind!!!
overall... it turned out well...
hehe... dam happy!!!!
happy tat everythin turmed out well...
its lyk a burder has been taken off my shoulder!!!
haha... sooooooooooooo happy
but soooooooooooo tired...
friday still got debrief.. so tiring..
nvm.. our debrief will be quite fun i tink..
hehe.. gtg .... ciaoz..
crystal [searchin] 8:46 AM
relationship
recently i have been quite close wif this guy..
he has been veri sweet to me...
i noe tat he lyk me for some time le..
it was during camp tat i feel close to him..
but we arent together....
bcoz i was preparing foe the teacher's day programme,
he accompany e whole time..
i feel really pampered when i m wif him..
but....
i feel tat recently,
we have been too close...
i m those kind of gerls tat needs to be alone...
i dun guys to be too sticky to me...
i will feel veri uncomfortable..
i noe u will be reading these
and i wanna tell u...
we need to take things slow..
we r still frens...
u dun have to be so protective over me...
i tink tat we need to have a distance btw us
we r movin too fast..
i hope tat u can understand wad i feelin
and why i m tellin u tis...
i noe u will feel veri hurt but i wan u to noe tis..
i m not veri ready to enter into a relationship
i hope u can understand...
i m not ready to have commitments...
i cant give u or promise u anythin..
hope u will understand...
crystal [searchin] 8:18 AM
friendship
after tellin them those stuff,
i felt better...
they treated me better...
feel happy tat our friendship wun be gone juz lyk tat...
haha...
gtg... ciao..=P
crystal [searchin] 8:08 AM
Friday, August 19, 2005
wad m i?
wads wrong wif me?
wad have i been doing?
haven been blogging...
if u read my previous entry
u will understand y...
have been busy wif many stuff
e teacher's day programme, service
common tests, dance and my personal stuff..
dam tired recently but cannot fall asleep till late night...
wad is happenin...
izit me?
u? her? him?
or perharps them?
have been askin myself these questions...
tinkin of e past and comparin it wif the present
things have changed...
ppl do change...
drastic changes occur every now and den..
after helpin u ppl,
u tend to take things for granted...
u got wan u wanted and feel happy now...
how the fuck did u repay me?
by allowin our friendship to fade
well done.. tats wad i can say..
u enjoy the good times wif my help
when u encounter problems, i was there
i consoled u, encouraged u
but when i need a fren, u went away
u chucked me one side lyk a stranger.
i thought tat we were frens..
i guess i was wrong...
things dun appear as was it is..
they may appear to be ur frens
but when u need them, where are they?
haiz... dam tired..
dunno wad to do...
hope tat things wun be better
crystal [searchin] 11:02 AM
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
mentally ill?!
start to hate blogging...
weneva i blog, i will tink of many stuff..
especially him...
is hard to forget someone...
i really feel helpless at times...
no one can help me overcome these
but myself....
he doesnt lyk me anymore...
he has a new gerlfriend...
hope tt he is happy now...
happy for him and wishes he all e best..
but i cant stop my heart from aching...
it is bleeding .....
the wound is getting deeper each time...
i noe tt time is e best solution to everything
but when will this every end?
probably a long time...
i also dunno...
i m tryin vey hard to face reality...
but it is dificult...
when i do certain things
or when others talk abt a certain issue
flashes of the past run thru my mind...
i dunno how to describe the feelin
or rather the pain...
it juz worsen my condition..
my frenz ask me to accept other ppl
maybe e pain will lessen..
but izit fair to use to them?
m i suppose to use them to forget the pain?
it is lyk dam selfish la...
i have rejected them...
they have done alot for me..
i dun wanna hurt them further...
it is not fair for them..
i will only accept them when i m ready
when i have get over this issue
or when i have healed...
if u r readin this, i juz wanna thank ya
wheneva i m sad, u r there to make me laugh
but i really cant accept anyone...
i m sorrie...mickey mouse...
crystal [searchin] 7:14 AM
