Saturday, July 16, 2005
sister
something is wrong...
i can sense it...
my sis says tat i visit her blog
tats y she cant post her exam results...
huh?
we use to be so close...
we tell each other everythin..
and its lyk we can interpret
each other's minds
now... its lyk she hides lotsa things from me
although my family is finally back together
but me and my sis are lyk driftin apart
i dunno wad ta do..
it really breaks my heart....
although these days we have
some tiffs, but i dun tink these
can affect our relationship...
i dunno la
after goin thru so much in skool
i m mentally & physically tired
with addition problems wif my sis
i really dunno wad ta do...
i really wan her to read e compo
its abt her and e things she do
tat i m proud of....
i m really happy to have her as my sister
i really hope tat things will turn out better
anyway... gtg and prepare for tuition
byes
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crystal [searchin] 5:18 AM
Friday, July 15, 2005
searchin
juz found out tat
i haven been bloggin recently...
anyway many things happen...
he gave an answer...
dunno how to describle e feeling..
relieve or sad?
i also dunno...
perharps more of a sad one ba...
didnt did i expect tat i
will listen to wad his frenz say..
i didnt noe tat i was tat naive
to actually buy their story...
have to thank him for helpin me lol...
i noe tat i have been troubling him alot..
soorie arh.. den i always bully him..
sorrie eh....dun angry hor...
veri grateful tat i had
liling to accompany me
thru out tis week...
i noe u have lotsa problems too..
but dun worry
i will still be there wheneva ya need me ok..
lurva ya... thanks u for everything
crystal [searchin] 6:36 AM
Friday, July 08, 2005
thoughts
thoughts...
after talkin to tim yesterdae
(my jie's exboyfriend)
made me go into deep thoughts..
i ask him wad should i do..
he told me to make no decision..
or in other words...
dun choose anyone...
let nature takes its place..
if i m fated to be wif any1 of them
den i will be..
i will hurt any of them if i were
to make a decision...
so y not remain as friends
yet love one another...
i dun have to express
my feelins to any of them...
in tis way...
i dun have ta feel so pressurized...
and i will not hurt any1
although alone can be lonely
at times but there lotsa
advantages being alone
u have more freedom,
more time to spent wif ur friends
u can do wadeva ya wan..
no restrictions at all..
but can all tis defeat love?
i dun tink so..
hai... i dunno la...
sound so crappy all...
i'll end here ba...
buaiz
crystal [searchin] 5:34 AM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
decision
wad to do...
i have write him a letter...
but i heard from his friend
tat he tio tai zi again...
hai....
wad happen again...
i guess i wun be gettin
any responds from him..
he cant even get e letter..
wad ta do...
tis is fate...
we r not fated to be together
den let it be..
i have tried...
theres nothin i can do le...
haha...
hope for e best ba...
i need to keep myself
happy coz i still need
ta help danial solve his problem...
anyway..
gtg can le.. buaiz=P
crystal [searchin] 6:33 AM
Monday, July 04, 2005
confused
confused....
wad should i do...
should i tell him abt it...
shamine say i should...
if not it will not be fair
for him as he dunnno
wad i wan from him rite..
hai... but i wanna see
if he has any initiative...
or in other words..
let nature takes its place..
if i and him is meant to be
den we will be...
if not wadeva i do is useless...
i m so frustrated over it...
its lyk so argh..
i dunno how to express
wad i m actually feelin now..
but i now tat it is slowly
tearin me apart...
i face breathin difficulties once again...
hai...
maybe i should glet him noe...
but i m veri afraid tat
i will hurt any of them...
especially him...
i dun wan him to be
injure while walkin tis path
but i still hurt him on e way...
i m so gulity lol...
hai...
life is lyk tat...
wad can i do...
crystal [searchin] 7:50 AM
i week..
i week...
tats all i give u..
is up to u to do wadeva
u wan to do within e week...
either to make things rite or wad...
i m tired...
if u still act lyk nothin
has happened....
den... i juz have to tell u tat
its over...
its over...
tis will be e last time....
even if ur friends beg me...
i m tired of givin u e chance...
i m tired of u lyin
and cheatin...
i m so sick of it...
enough is enough...
tats a limit to one's patience
wad u have done
has already cross e boundery..
when e week is over...
im done wif it..
so r u...
we will not have any
fuckin connections wif u..
i hope tat u die juz rite b4 me...
i hope tat tis will juz be over
and done wif it....
dam vexed over tis shit...
i cant stop tis thing from happenin
den i shall stop tis b4 its drags on...
crystal [searchin] 1:15 AM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
pictures
tis r some of e pics
we took on suday...
hehe=P
crystal [searchin] 12:33 AM
Friday, July 01, 2005
wad i have learnt...
leSson leaRnt...
i have got to realize
a couple of stuff todae....
things have change and
so have i....
walkin down e staircase with jos
den suddenly he rushed up...
our eyes meet...
i dunno how to explain
e situation in detail...
everythin juz happened in seconds...
i duno wad to do
but juz to stare at his eyes...
asked him wen he going back...
den stare at his eyes for a few seconds
and walk away....
some stuff ran thru my mind
when i stared into his eyes...
thought alot in e afternoon..
but wen ta sleep after tinkin some time
coz not feelin veri well...
sort of a minor fever...
woke up and replied some msg...
still tinkin alot of stuff rite now...
veri confused and frustrated...
have alot of questions in my mind...
i wanna ask him
but it seems lyk forever to even have a
serious conversation wif him...
i dunno wad i feel now...
i dunno wad to do either...
every1 has been tryin to tell
me to forget e past
and enjoy e present..
i hope tat i can do...
anywae gtg off now..
byes
crystal [searchin] 1:23 AM
