Wednesday, June 29, 2005
he's back
he's back...
i have lotsa mixed feelin when
i first saw his presence in e canteen...
lots of stuff went thru my mind...
i dunno if i still lurva him..
i dunno wad to do..
his friend had told me some stuff..
r they all lies?
r they not real...
perharps tat said tat juz
to make me wait for him...
i dunno....
things have been rather difficult for me...
had to cope wif skool work....
and many other problems...
i m tired...
is already up to him...
if wad ur friend said is true....
i m dam stressed now...
veri tired le...
u make mi feel dam confused...
u dun even seem to care abt anythingl...
i dunno if ur friend has told u e things..
even if u dun know abt it...
y do u have to act lyk tat...
maybe tis is u...
tis is e real u....
it is juz me who is juz so stupid
to believe u and ur friends...
to believe tat there is a good side of u...
every1 has been tellin me
to be carefull and stuff...
i still choose to believe u
and allow myself to get hurt...
well... if this is wad u actually wan,
den be it...
let thing be tis way...
i will not care abt u animore...
i still wrote u a stupid letter
askin how u have been....
i m so stupid mam...
i dunno y e hell i wrote tat man....
i dunno...
i m dam confused....
when u walked pass,
u pretend to not see my presence
u didnt even wave or say hi...
at e veri least..
u could at least look at my direction
to keep me a signal or somethin..
u didnt...
u did nothin...
perharps i realli still lurva u..
but e things tat u have done
had dried my lurva for u...
wad is gonna will neva return...
crystal [searchin] 12:33 AM
Sunday, June 26, 2005
c.l.a.s.s.
c.l.a.s.s
u ppl rawk!
todae e c.l.a.s.s ppl, mentors and trainers
meet up at pasir ris beach
we had a load of fun man!
first we played passin parcel...
haha...i knew every forfit
coz i plan everything...hahah=P
seein every1 do e funni forit
makes mi laugh..haha
jonathan acted lyk a cow...
amos pole dance...oh man...
hahahaha...
liling even got it recorded!
i laughed my butt out...
den...they had 1/2 of free time
some when to cycle and some played freebee...
while me and liling set up
some of e station games
they had to blow flour out of a pail
to eat e marshmarlow..
peel and eat e orange as fast as possible
played e straw game
water bomb...
swim in e sea for a few hours
while swimmin, we played water bomb
dam fun..
pulled ppl down e water..
hahah=P
den we played water wresting...
i sat on liling's shoulder..
competed wif nelson while he sat on
russel's shoulder....
haha.. guess wad?
i won!!!!
hehehee..
den.. we went ta wash up...
e guys didnt have shampoo so
they juz r rinsed their body...
den.. can see there r flour on their hair
hahaha...
anyway gtg now...
wait till i received e photos from joshua
and perry den i post it ok..
keep rawkin ppl...
skool startin tml...
kinda sian lol
anyway buai...
lurva ya...muacks!
crystal [searchin] 4:16 AM
Friday, June 24, 2005
tis r some of e pics tat
we took..hehe =P
(i look spastic)
crystal [searchin] 5:29 AM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
tired
hey..
looks lyk its been some time since
i have been bloggin decently..
hahaha..crap..
anyway...i went ta meet cynthia todae
met her at taka..
while walkin there i saw
tim and ziyan...
tat dumb ass is so freakin gay lol..
crack a few lame jokes wif him
and met up wif cynthia..
she realli treats me as her young sis
she dotes me..
once in a while she will ask me
out for dinner or to hang out
to check how m i doing...
isnt tat nice?...
went ta eat dinner and did some
window shopping...
she and i talked a lot..
we talked on relationships,
studies, kinship etc...
feel veri comfortable when she around...
merely pours out everything to her..
hahaha.....
den we talk abt status in a relationship..
i dun tink tat status in a relationship
is ver important.....
as long u can get along
with each other..
feel comfortable when every other..
lurve each other...
alothough u r not a couple
but u noe tat he loves u..
isnt tat enough?
isnt tat wad couples wan..
perharp not havin a status
is better tat havin status..
u have to care wad ppl tink and stuff..
if u do not own tat status,
u can do things freely...
so i rather not enter into a relationship
but at e same time i can enjoy
begin pammered and lurve..
isnt tat wonderful?
anyway its late now..
i gtg and sleep le..
nitez pple..
lurve ya...
crystal [searchin] 9:49 AM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
virus
vIruS!!!
my com got virus!
so sick lol..
every1 seems to have virus in their com..
wa kao lol...
e com has been down for
a few days le..
near to a week...
kinda couldnt control e feelin
of not usin e com...
so addicted to it...
now is alot of stupid pop up..
so fuckin irritatin la..
every once in a while
they will appear...
sick blastard who invented pop up..
wanna kill them..
asshole..
gtg now..
bye
crystal [searchin] 8:04 AM
Sunday, June 12, 2005
dam bored
dam bored!!!
i am so dam bored la....
durin e holidays...
i either slack at home...
or i go to skool....
i practically have no life...
i juz sit infront of e tv everyday..
i do nothin but watch e tv...
i dunno wad ta do lol..
my sis keeps hoggin on to e com...
my tv in e livin rm is down..
my mom is watchin tv in her rm...
and my granny hogs onto e phone..
wa kao...
wad is life man?
i practically stare into space......
argh... so fuckin bored...
dunno wad ta do lol...
wadeva la..
now waitin for him ta call mi..
so bored...
wadeva la..
end here..
nothin to say coz nothin excitin happen..
gtg..bye
crystal [searchin] 9:07 AM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
wow...potty
needs
every1 has their own needs
e ppl who need help from others to live
are lyk e old folks and little kids
they r unable to do some things
by themselves...
they need our help lyk babies need us
to take care of them, feed them and stuff
e old folks are unable to carry out
some chores or even carry some stuff...
today.. mi, hui min and shi qi
we went ta send lunch and dinner
to some of e old folks and help them
clean their homes..
mostly homes tat we went to..
need ppl to help them to do e house chores..
they r either discharged from the hospitals
or they r suffering from some illness...
i went to mdm teo's house today...
she was a old lady(around 89...)
she was friendly person...
she was veri grateful to us when
we visited her and helped her do some chores
i washed e toliet and mopped e floor wif ah min..
den we proceed to the second house..
oh.. man.. she is a fussy woman!!!!
mdm sim was veri specific abt cleanliness!!
her house is already so clean she still wan us
to mop the floor for 3 times!!!!
argh..
dunno her la..
we volunteered to mop but
she said tat she is showin us how to mop!
den she apparently mopped wadeva i mopped!
wa kao!
argh... neva mind..
i muz learn to be patient!
argh...so frustrated...
gtg..
my sis is do irritatin!
buai..take care ppl...
lurva ya=P
crystal [searchin] 5:03 AM
Sunday, June 05, 2005
quite long neva update le..
i dunno wad ta write la...
dam moody when i blog lol..
juz got pissed by prawn man...
hai... hate stayin at home lol...
argh...fcuk...
dunno wad ta do...
homework still got alot lol...
dun feel lyk doin lo...
hai... end here le la...
anyway..i wanna say a big thank u
to e ppl who r concern abt mi...
thank u so much!!!
crystal [searchin] 9:02 PM
