Monday, May 30, 2005
wad u wan
wAd?
wad is tat u wan from me?
haven i done enough?
do u enjoy torturing ppl?
do u lyk to see ppl in torment?
do u enjoy doin tat?!
is tat the reason?
is tat wad u wan?
is tat all?
although i have try all means..
jus to please u,
make u happy...
but wad have u done to me?
this is not the first time u have been doin tis...
u have been using me in the veri beginning!
wads wrong wif u?
am i just a toy?
when izit tat u realli go n do?
do u get serious?
wad can u do?
slack around and ask ppl to come n go
whenever u r happy?
i am not ur puppy...
i am a human...
i have feelings...
y muz u inflict pain onto me time and again?!
wad have i done wrong?
perharps the only mistake was to noe u..
the greatest mistake is to believe in u...
the worst thing to do was to make u happy...
the most stupidest thing is to even allow
u to torture me...
i hate u.....
after all these...
i dun tink i can even forgive u...
i am tired...
u seem to be a flawless ass in the presence of every1
u r nothin but a hypocrite!!!!
u fucker...
i really hope tat i had neva known u
u make my life a living hell!
u loser...
get lost...
i dun ever wanna see u...
dun present your digusiting look
which contain your filthy soul in my presence...
u make me despise u even more...
crystal [searchin] 11:22 PM
Sunday, May 29, 2005
camp fever
yeah
liling come back from camp le
so happy...
miss her so much lol...
yeah...since she left for camp
many things happen lol....
no one to talk to at night..
but luckily in class got michelle,
fion & lijun to crap with...
hahahaha....so funny lol...
but when night arrives...
there is no one i can tell my prob to..
anyway she already come back le...
juz went out and had lunch wif her...
ate mac at enter...
den walked to kiddy palace and talk..
while walkin there, we passed by some shops
and we each bought similar bracelet....
den we went to kiddy's palace and talk..
we chat for a few hours...
told her everything tat happen tis week..
tell her wad happened in class...
wad happened in C.L.A.S.S.
and tell her some other stuff(secret!)
we had alot of fun lol...
play, takin pic and
tellin each other how tis week has affected us
or wad happen during tis week...
haha.. i say until we both lyk les lyk tat..
no la... we r juz quite close...
anyway liling also got suitors...
hehe...=P
holiday come le..
but it doesnt seem to be a holiday to me lol
had ta go back to sch 2 to 3 times every week
got a-maths remedial, c.l.a.s.s. meetin and cca
hai... den still got literature lesson
at woodlands regional library..
hai... so sian...
den still got loads of homework to complete...
especially SS lol...
wad kao...
got group work and indiv project lol..
gtg and do research le..
bye... take care ppl
crystal [searchin] 1:50 AM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
wow
wow
went ta mr jhee's church yesterday
wow... he really sang man..
and honestly, he really can sing...
i meant with shi qi and took 153..
wa kao... e journey was quite long..
i cant sit too long in a bus or else i would feel giddy..
but overall, it was alrite la...
den reached e place...
stanley came and brought us to e church..
when we first enter e place,
we saw mr jhee jumping and singin..
he was veri high...
jumping and bouncing...
e place was realli liven up by him..
every1 followed to jump and joined in the singin
it was quite fun...
den every1 sat down and heard the father speak
den after 2 hours...
but during the 2 hours, i dunno suan stanley how many times
hahahaha... dam funny lol...
i bully him until he has nothin to say lol..
den came mr jhee...
he said tat we realli caught him off guard..
he was realli surprised tat we were there...
he was quite happy..
den we went for dinner with mr jhee and stanley
dam funny....
crap wif mr jhee...
funny lyk hell lol...
but mr jhee couldnt stay for long as he had to rush to somewhere
so stanley accompany us...
we also crap wif him..
den he asked us some questions on god and stuff
had quite an enjoyable talk wif him
den came his boys...
omg lol... there was a boy...
he dam irritatin lol.....
wad e #$%&! lol
he dam lame la....
wadeva... den stanley send us to e bus stop
and we board e bus back to tp
went to inter and saw wei hong...
he keep sayin shi qi as you zhi
funny lol....
aniwae.. we took 238 home and tats it...
hahahaha..
dun feel lyk blogging le..
soooooo... take care ppl..
crystal [searchin] 10:36 PM
cIP
CIP
todae was CIP day
e whole skool when out and sell flag
e sec 3 were assigned to orchard
my class was given e spot
hereen and around cathay...
my partner was michelle...
we start of when mrs liu dismissed us...
we were e first few ta leave skool and reach e bus stop
but e stupid bus came so late and every1 was already waitin...
i and michelle was so tired of squeezin wif every1
so we took cab...
and e sec 1 boys snatched taxi wif us...
lame lolx... dunno how ta give way to a gerl lol
wad e hell... piece of shit
den michelle snatch tis pair of sec 1's cab
but gettin in e cab
while e boy r talkin....cunnin sia
hahaha... at least we got e cab...hehehe
den we went ta wheellock ta buy coffee
and walked ta hereen....
when we reached hereen, it was lyk 1.30
and there was realli nobody even in e shoppin mall
veri few... ask who to donate sia
den we went ta cathay nobody there too and cannot go inside
so we went to taka...
we ask e public ta donate but
we met up wif some stingy freak den around 2,
everything ta ti change..
e cowards starts to get bigger
and e ppl became more generous
givin 2 to 5 each time..
den there was lyk a few skools who was also
askin for donations too lol
veri competitive.....
but me and michelle went on lol...
no choice ma...
met up wif so ppl wif ATTITUDE lol
dam fuckin rude
dun wanna donate den say la...
dun need to act as if u r king lyk ta
we have ta beg ya to donate lol
idiot...
wadeva....den we saw tis malay softball player from our skool
he could get any1 to donate...
hahaha lol
when he saw ppl donatin for us he was fuming...
hahahahaha... so funni lol
den.. after around 4...
we went back ta hereen and saw thomas, lyon, fion and amanda
we got 2 quite shuai actors ta help us donate...
and they did...
around 4.45, we went back to somerset mrt station..
waited and waited till 5 plus den we can leave...
wa kao lol... my whole body was achin lol
argh....den went somewhere wif sotong and met up wif paul
talk for a while den he left le...
when ta buy some stufffs and went home....
now tryin to waste time...
hahaha... y m i so lame lol
end here le coz i dun wanna talk abt my results...
dam freakin lousy... hai... dun say le..
good nites...
sweet dreams
crystal [searchin] 12:25 AM
Monday, May 16, 2005
finally over
finally over
e exams r finally over...
so darn relief lolx...
but tis didnt bring me much joy...
had alot of different things in my mind...
i dun really feel happy rite now...
thought of many incident...
everythin juz flash thru my mind...
as if todae was my last day on earth...
y... most of e flashes r abt *him*...
all abt him....
worried abt him yet cant ask abt him..
wad the @%6#&%$.....
dunno wad i should do....
i dunno who to talk to...
there is no one..... at there...
i m tired... no one understands
wanna end it all...
end all of it rite now...
sick of it....
y has it to be me....
argh.....
crystal [searchin] 11:42 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2005
confused
i dunno y things have turn out tis way
i dunno wad has happen
was it me or is #$@&! perharp is me....
it has always been me....
i always seem to offend him...
wad have i done???????
i have so idea....
i tink its time to forgot and let go
its time to stop everything...
life still have to go on....
no matter wad...
i already tired and its over.........
crystal [searchin] 1:43 AM
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
exam fever
everyone is busy mugging for e exams
i had literature and e-maths paper 1 yesterdae
literature paper was dam hard la
i didnt study on e character which came out
all thanks to e stupid tony marston...
gonna fail lit lol....
and e poem was abt death but e poem was kinda of a irony....
there is was talking abt death den e word IMMORTALITY came up
wad e hell...
dunno how to do lol
den benson sittin beside mi
finished e paper within 15mins lol
i dam stressed lol...
noticing him finishin e paper at such a quick speed
really pressurized mi lol
den there came mrs gratez...
omg...she is still so ANNOYING LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I JUZ DUN LYK HER....ARGH....
den came e maths paper i sat for 2 hours
and my butt realli hurt lol
e paper was relatively ok...
able to do...
but e paper 2 sux lol....
dam difficult lol... gonna fail tis paper too...
wa kao...she paper 1 set easy easy but paper 2 kill ppl lol....
wad e hell... dam difficult lol....
wadeva la... also no use screamin abt liao ma haiz...
tml geo lol feel so sianz lol....
also dunno wad ta study...
den feelin dam terrible and tired..
maybe bcoz of e stress lol i dam weak...
haiz....e 3e2 dun need ta go sch so good la..
i dun have holiday lol they got.....
den every1 suan me being in 3e1 i
s not tat wonderfull as every1 thought lol....
so stop sayin tat e1 veri good...
(maybe they r ppl who r good but i m e lousy 1)
wadeva.. la..
i dam pissed lol....
not feelin well...
wanna sleep..
nitez ppl...
take care
and sweet dreams
all e best for ya exams=P
crystal [searchin] 2:09 AM
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
wad have i done
wa kao lol...
i accidentally deleted my former post...
now muz retype.....
wad e hell lol....
ok...back to e topic...
everyone has been muggin real hard for exams
while i m still slaking lol
every1 also already started revising
and i m still blogging...
omg..i can fail my exams lol
and my mom will juz beat e hell out of me
haha lol...i feel so lame...
i forgot wad i wrote formerly
and i dun bother to recall
so i ending ya..
peace ppl...
happy mugging
crystal [searchin] 1:52 AM
Sunday, May 01, 2005
first
tis is my first post
coz i juz made my blog.....
still cant really figure out how to use it lol...
still haven even finish wif e link stuff..
got alot o problem lol...
i tink i gonna change e template..
u noe wad...
i juz found out Tat watson also using e similar TEMPLATE as mi...
i muz change lol....
hahahaha..
later he say i copy lol...
got alot of help from my jie..
if it wasnt for her, i still dunno how to do all tis lol muz really thank her... although we quarrel sometimes
i gtg le... bye =P
crystal [searchin] 1:47 AM
